Let me just first say that nothing is always what it seems. I feel like we are constantly engulfed in the world of social media– which is so damn pretty– it’s sickening. I recently caught up with a LONG time friend and we literally only see each other a few times a year and I divulged my deepest darkest secrets and thoughts with her.. And her response was “I couldn’t tell by your Instagram” WELL DUH. I haven’t really let go in my IG recently and well, though times may be tough, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel.
I mean, though I have this outlet- This Mom Uncensored, I have yet to really let completely loose. I just feel like some things aren’t really meant to be shared. Anyway– Times aren’t always pretty. I’ve kind of pulled back on Insta the last week or so.. Which if y’all know me, isn’t easy. I’ve really been trying to focus on my family and what is right in front of me while being completely present. Let me just say that isn’t easy. I find that aimlessly scrolling and tapping and double tapping sends me to this alternative universe where .. I can just escape. Its the 5 minute check out that I need– my smoke break if you will. It’s really stupid actually. I’ve realized that I am SO glued to my phone it’s sickening— thanks a lot iOS update. I‘m always on it. Lord knows what I look at or what I try to keep on top of, but work turns into research which turns into “researching” which turns into hours of lost time. Suffice to say, I’m over it.. For now.
The last few months I have been GRINDING. I’ve been working days and nights and trying to keep on top of being a Mom and a Wife.. so excuse me if I’ve been MIA but stress is at an all-time high and I’ve been SO closed off. I can’t wait for October to be in full gear. This weekend starts a million birthday parties and hoping to squeeze in the Hometown Fair and I can eat a pepper belly and funnel cake and snap out of this shit.
I spend so many hours working, and so many hours engulfed in my phone.. I hope that October will give me a little bit of a chance to catch up with family and friends and some much needed time to reconnect. I feel like it’s been forever and.. Well, I’m ready for a change. I’m ready to snap out of the funk– work a little less and let loose and not work SO much. So if you’re ready to hang out in October… LMK. 🙂