I’m not 100% certain but I gather people think j have my shit together, especially those who are acquaintances. Those in my tight-knit circle probably know that I lose my shit at least 25 times a day. What people don’t know is that I google everything, I’m a crazy researcher and when I don’t know something off hand and one of the kiddos are begging me for an answer my go to is to ask their dad.
I think in today’s world we rely heavily on social media as a depiction of what real life is. I can’t say that I’ve seen any Instagram that depicts a family and all of its glory. I mean— some are more honest than others but it can’t all be freshly blown out hair, crisp sheets, and a sparkling kitchen.. and also not to mention a bathroom with no bath toys! I can say that yeah, I post the good, cute and everyone smiling but for the most part, our lives are glimpses of just that. It is manic all the time. Someone is always talking, someone is always invading someone’s personal space and going to the bathroom alone (young or old) is a luxury. I am so thankful for my family of 5. I think that we all fit together perfectly- flaws, chaos and all. I always tell new parents the days are long and the years are short– and there isn’t anything truer than that. This was the purpose of This Mom Uncensored- to have a safe, judgment-free zone where parents alike could lean on each other for support and experience parenthood together.
Who am I really? Like down to the nitty gritty— I am a crazy control freak who likes things done in an orderly and timely fashion and when it doesn’t go that way— I lose my shit. I am always waiting for someone and each minute that goes by my blood begins to boil and I’m thrown off my entire game and I’m crabby for days. The kids know that on time is late and I like things to be in order. I also curse a lot. My poor kids are going to have the WORST potty mouth. Brendan always says that if I don’t cool it– I’m going to be getting a call from the principal. Good thing that hasn’t happened just yet and that my kids’ mouths are ever evolving and that they know the appropriate place to speak their minds.. (at home).
When I’ve completely lost my mind, a shower is my quick reset and I usually pep back up but I love a good sweaty gym sesh or a dip in the ocean— weather permitting.
May these wonderful children of mine teach me patience, compassion, and flexibility. I take it day to day but wowzers this parenting biz isn’t as easy as people make it look.